When you know, but pretend not to know

I can't explain why I compare, contrast and categorize life events in the way that I do; grammatically that is. What I can tell you, with declarative certainty, is that verb tenses brought me to the clichéd but absolutely true realization that you should live your life in the present. As is the case with …

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Fetal position

If I wanted to, I could destroy her. And this awareness filled me with a demented exhilaration. It was electric and awesome. I felt empowered and alive for the first time in my pathetic life. The only dissatisfying note being that she didn't look scared, not even worried really; more like deeply offended and slightly …

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Expectations

Great Expectations THAT DAY was a day like every other. Maybe it was this awareness that tipped the scale. We'll never know. But, you know people, we live to surmise. Thing is, Jeffrey was bored, really bored and had been for quite a while. I remember him saying to me one day that he was …

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Feeling bad can be good

Regret, sadness, embarrassment mixed with astonishment, joy, euphoria mixed with disappointment, jealousy, anger and a slew of nuanced emotions in between is probably where most of humanity sits in the 'feelings' department. Yet, this state is starkly opposite to a world that flogs the need to be 100% happy 24/7 and where being happy is …

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Swing

Pixabay Schmooze me Booze me Long as I can lose me Even for just an hour Lie to myself It'll be okay Hold tight let go seems alright then don't know tic tac toe to and fro a losing game most every day trying crying feeling close to dying Gotta let go one final blow …

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Reacquaintance

Photo by Kulbir So, this is it. Alone and starting over again. There is a teenage flitting of excitement in the pit of the stomach and youthful expectation at the back of the mind that accompanies new challenges and change at any age. It feels good! Getting reacquainted with yourself is grueling, intoxicating, surprising and …

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The courtyard

Back then, during the cold winter evenings, the five women would gather in Ida's barn to keep warm. They looked forward to this time of day when they could meet and talk; seated on wooden chairs huddled close together in a circle amidst the familiar scent of manure, feed and dust. The body heat off …

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Fences – “You gotta take the crooked with the straight”

Denzel Washington and Viola Davis are beyond belief in this powerfully touching movie (based on the Pulitzer Prize winning play by August Wilson) that explores the messy, multifaceted, shameful and proudful relationships of a family. There are times when, in the presence of something bigger than yourself, you become lost both in your admiration and …

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Elizabeth Gilbert’s City of Girls

What a read! A confession of sorts within an answer to a question..."What were you to my father?" A declaration of having existed on this earth and left a mark. The highs are dizzyingly so and the lows are lower than pond scum. Somewhere in between is the exercise of living. Living to do, to …

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Snippets of Life (from A to Z) “X”

THE LETTER "X" X marks the spot. Malcolm X certainly made his mark despite being told Xanadu was unattainable. And what beauty in John Singer Sargent's painting of Madame X wherein he X-rays her enigmatic character with his masterful brush strokes. What of Generation X surpassed by Generation Z who know not of the times …

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