Rikki wore herself, her other self, with aplomb. Hers was an expression of polite detachment and of slight boredom with it all. And cloaked in this dignified isolation, rather than give rise to pity or protection, it drew others to her with its charismatic secret quality. She had learned quickly, back in her dark days, …
Tag: life
Actually doing alright…great even
Thinking, speaking, doing. Even when not doing still doing, even when not speaking still saying something and so it goes. This ever rushing on of life and we along with it. Some in the eye of the storm, some on the sidelines and still others expertly balanced on the edge. Everyone everything everywhere moving and …
Haiku Tryptich of loss
#1 No need to worry Meritocracy is dead Hail! Hail! Less is King #2 Immediacy Thwarting all contemplation Yet, then it's over #3 Eat and run ranks high Refusing to chew slowly Life undigested Title photo by Ayoub Bouhouche
1989
That summer of 1989 was distinguished by a philosophy of carpe diem and a Faustian desire to learn. We were young. We were far from home. Everything was possible. “Come on! We are going to be late,” yelled Gianna grabbing her book bag a clementine, my arm and dragging me down the stairs and out …
When you know, but pretend not to know
I can't explain why I compare, contrast and categorize life events in the way that I do; grammatically that is. What I can tell you, with declarative certainty, is that verb tenses brought me to the clichéd but absolutely true realization that you should live your life in the present. As is the case with …
Fetal position
If I wanted to, I could destroy her. And this awareness filled me with a demented exhilaration. It was electric and awesome. I felt empowered and alive for the first time in my pathetic life. The only dissatisfying note being that she didn't look scared, not even worried really; more like deeply offended and slightly …
Expectations
Great Expectations THAT DAY was a day like every other. Maybe it was this awareness that tipped the scale. We'll never know. But, you know people, we live to surmise. Thing is, Jeffrey was bored, really bored and had been for quite a while. I remember him saying to me one day that he was …
Feeling bad can be good
Regret, sadness, embarrassment mixed with astonishment, joy, euphoria mixed with disappointment, jealousy, anger and a slew of nuanced emotions in between is probably where most of humanity sits in the 'feelings' department. Yet, this state is starkly opposite to a world that flogs the need to be 100% happy 24/7 and where being happy is …
Swing
Pixabay Schmooze me Booze me Long as I can lose me Even for just an hour Lie to myself It'll be okay Hold tight let go seems alright then don't know tic tac toe to and fro a losing game most every day trying crying feeling close to dying Gotta let go one final blow …
Reacquaintance
Photo by Kulbir So, this is it. Alone and starting over again. There is a teenage flitting of excitement in the pit of the stomach and youthful expectation at the back of the mind that accompanies new challenges and change at any age. It feels good! Getting reacquainted with yourself is grueling, intoxicating, surprising and …
Manu writes 